She said to herself: "No, just now I can't think of it, later on, when I am calmer.
" But this calm for thought never came; every time the thought rose of what she had done and what would happen to her, and what she ought to do, a horror came over her and she drove those thoughts away.
"Later, later," she said--"when I am calmer.
" But in dreams, when she had no control over her thoughts, her position presented itself to her in all its hideous nakedness.