I must explain my feelings, the feelings that have guided me and will guide me, so that you may not be in error regarding me.

You know I had resolved on a divorce, and had even begun to take proceedings.

I won't conceal from you that in beginning this I was in uncertainty, I was in misery; I will confess that I was pursued by a desire to revenge myself on you and on her.

When I got the telegram, I came here with the same feelings; I will say more, I longed for her death.

But....