I won't conceal from you that in beginning this I was in uncertainty, I was in misery; I will confess that I was pursued by a desire to revenge myself on you and on her.

When I got the telegram, I came here with the same feelings; I will say more, I longed for her death.

But....

" He paused, pondering whether to disclose or not to disclose his feeling to him.

" But I saw her and forgave her.