" Why do I strive, why do I toil in this narrow, confined frame, when life, all life with all its joys, is open to me?" said he to himself.

And for the first time for a very long while he began making happy plans for the future.

He decided that he must attend to his son's education by finding a tutor and putting the boy in his charge, then he ought to retire from the service and go abroad, and see England, Switzerland and Italy.

" I must use my freedom while I feel so much strength and youth in me," he said to himself.