" I should not be able to speak to her without a feeling of reproach; I could not look at her without resentment; and she will only hate me all the more, as she's bound to.

And besides, how can I now, after what Darya Alexandrovna told me, go to see them? Can I help showing that I know what she told me? And me to go magnanimously to forgive her, and have pity on her! Me go through a performance before her of forgiving, and deigning to bestow my love on her!... What induced Darya Alexandrovna to tell me that? By chance I might have seen her, then everything would have happened of itself; but, as it is, it's out of the question, out of the question!" Darya Alexandrovna sent him a letter, asking him for a side-saddle for Kitty's use.

" I'm told you have a side-saddle," she wrote to him; "I hope you will bring it over yourself.

" This was more than he could stand.